Leaving Book(lit)net - Long Post
So, this is a long time coming and I've put a lot of thought into it, but I've made the decision to become less involved with, for sake of argument, LitNet. This was not an easy choice because I had convinced myself that staying was beneficial to my writing. Not only was that a lie, but I find that it's been slowly wearing down my desire to write at all, at least for the right reasons.
In short, a year ago, LitNet changed my life. I went to Portland as a finalist and I was just so excited and grateful. I thought I had no chance because so many other stories were doing better, but I was proven wrong. The contest was not a popularity contest, it was based on quality, and being picked made me feel like I had some talent I could explore proudly. But when I got back, it was almost as if that never happened.
I gained maybe 15 followers over the course of the year, my reads have been fair but stagnant, and I couldn't wrap my head around why I was even picked for Portland if I was no longer an important asset to the site. And everything that has become important are the very things that really irritate me. Stories that are filled to the brim with sex, romanticizing rape, unedited glaring mistakes, and overall lower quality. And for a while I thought I was just being petty or jealous. Turns out it wasn't just me. A handful of authors on the site feel the same way as I do, knowing full well they can do better elsewhere, and that's why they're thinking of leaving or have already left.
As a member of this site, I shouldn't be wondering if my presence is even warranted. I shouldn't be competing with an overly flawed algorithm to build my platform. I shouldn't have to stand for authors demanding likes or follows because it is "owed" to them. I shouldn't be able to predict everything that's going to happen from who will be given a Top spotlight to the winner of the competition is based on numbers alone. I know this is harsh, but I think the most fair thing I can do is not surgarcoat the glaring issues I've come to no longer accept.
Just know that I will be leaving up my wholly "unpublishable" stories, finishing up "The Hybrid", responding to any new comments, but that's it. I may post other side projects here and there while working on other stuff, but nothing amazing. If I come back, then it will be for the readers who actually want me back, not my stubborn desire to continue fighting a losing battle. That's all there is to it.