My Twisted Promises
XVII
Violation. It's the only thing I could do to save him — violate him, ravish his soul.
What could I do? Forcing my will on him, forcing myself on him, I... I could never. I could never do this. Could I?
How can I just sit here and watch him laying himself open for this? Molestation. Abuse. Ruination. Again, and again, and again. I can't. I have all the power to render this land to blood and cinder, and here I am, helpless to save my own brother.
Do I even have the right to be this idle?
I wasn't even supposed to live, and here I am. Alive because of my weak pureblood brother throwing himself to fire to keep me warm.
I have no right to exist while he suffers.
My life for his life. Myself for his stability.
Do I have the right to doubt? I can stop this. One step over myself for his sake. For his sanity, for his soul.
Forcing my will on him... just once, so he would never be able to sell himself again. One little overstep.
Once. Just once.
Raping him. Raping his very essence, violating his mind, desecrating his soul. Once, to make him protected forever.
Do I have the right to stay still when I can stop this?
I never did this to those close to me. I never forced myself on anyone but Eldana herself. But I am having my way with Eldana, I am the monster they want to see me be.
I am never saving myself from being... this. So what's the point of keeping myself decent when one small overstepping the bounds would save those I love?
Love. I love him. Gods, I love him.
Hurting him once to save him — this is worth everything I'll kill within me.
This would be the Unforgivable Crime. This would be rape. Just to his soul and mind, not his body.
One last time. So he's never touched against his will again.
(По циклу "Соляные Круги на Кровавом Снегу")
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английский язык, нестандартная поэзия, любовь
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Отредактировано: 31.05.2023
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